How do I write when my mind is always racing by thinking the next thing?

I want to let it out on this page and see what comes out of me.

It feels hard and stiff letting it out and I think there is nothing in me worth writing about.  

A long time ago my teacher said my writing made no sense and I gave up my favorite thing.

Could this block be over?  Could I let it go and let the poison of someone else not be my truth?

I feel ready.  I feel ready to flow.  I feel ready to let go.  I feel ready to see what I have to say.  

I have been listening to a writer who puts her words with her husband’s beats. It inspires me.  

She says things that move me inside.  They take me on a journey with my mind that feels nice.  

I have always wanted to write a song.  I used to think I would be a songwriter.  

My dad got me a guitar and lessons with his friend when I was 18 but it didn’t stick.  

I would listen to Coldplay and imagine making my own music.  

I remember that girl so lost and sad about the world.  I had little confidence in myself.  

I knew I was good inside but somehow I also didn’t believe it.  

I felt most of life didn’t add up.  I felt the sadness of my family and the world.  It was passed down to me.

I have been feeling more free from it.  I have been shaking off the depression that is in my mind and on my skin.  

I use gratitude and acceptance like a healing salve on my life.  It washes over me and I see and feel color again.  

I feel excited when I am grateful.  I am even grateful for the girl inside of me that feels sad.  I take her with me and give her flowers and love.  

She is me and I am her.  She will always be a part of me.  In the background I hold her hand and show her how kind others are.  

I show her how to expect good.  I show her that the world is mostly good.  I ask for hugs and I let her feel the warmth and love when the hug penetrates my heart.  

She always helps me see when others are sad and need extra love.  She makes me more kind and compassionate.  

I am proud of us.  We are enjoying life. We are even thriving.  We trust that whatever life brings we will continue to reach for joy.  

I am proud of my journey.  I feel free inside.  I feel good.  I am who I was always meant to be.

In the shadow I see the light always has been guiding my way.  I release blame and judgment.  I forgive myself and others.

We all are doing our best.  Love and kindness is the way.