Some moments are so great they are hard to just leave behind.

Raising my first born or meeting my husband.

My youth and fun times.

Getting woken up by my mother for school with her soft, kind voice.  

Buying our first home and building a treehouse.

Our wedding.

Building my own fort with my friends in the woods when I was young.

My first kiss.  

Summer vacations that felt like they lasted forever.

Riding my bike to the pool with enough money to buy an icecream with my sister with tan skin, and not a care in the world. 

Stealing flowers from the neighbors with my Grandmother in the early morning

Listening to all of my favorite songs for the first time.  

My first year of sobriety.  

Selling my first jar of honey at the farmers market or my first painting. 

Finding out I was pregnant after 8 years of wishing for a baby.

Becoming a yoga teacher after many years of dreaming of it.  

Painting.

Swimming in the ocean in Mexico with my FAMILY.

Having a family. 

Buying a house with land. 

I could keep going because my life is so precious to me.  

I am wanting to look back and see how much I have lived and loved.  

I am not headed back and I know I need to turn my gaze ahead.  

I know there is so much more life to live and I must let go of what has come to pass to truly live in the present.  

I feel a little stuck in between.  One step in the past and one in the present.  I tug at my foot in the past and I find my shoe has something sticky on it with fear of the unknown and fear of change.  I look back like it’s a blueprint to figure out who I am.  

I think that life is all about figuring out who you are and sharing your true self with others.  

It’s okay to feel stuck.  I won’t stay here for long.  I have felt this way before.  I know what to do.  

I am honoring the life I have lived.  I am enjoying creating a new future every day.  There can be a time of in between and it can be a part of my story.  I am the one creating my life.  Slowly, I unstick my foot and trust.  I see myself trusting in the moment.  I see myself softening to this new feeling life.  I am up for the challenge.  I am ready to be who I need myself to be.  I am happy with my ordinary life.  I am ready to get into the world more.  Life is in front of me and I am letting go but never forgetting the beautiful existence I have been able to live.  

My feet are together now.  Wish me luck.